Dec 20, 2010

Do I Miss Anyone?

I saw a parting that happened between two of my friends. They were close each other, and I asked one of them whether she would miss her. Her answer was so direct that it made me think about missing someone. When do I miss someone? Who could I miss?

Miss
feel regret or sadness at no longer being able to enjoy the presence of
(New Oxford American Dictionary)

After thinking for a couple of hours, I felt it would be difficult for me to miss someone. So far, I don’t want to miss and will try to avoid missing anyone when & after I am parted with someone. There are three possible reasons I came up with.
  • I’ve lived in a fairly figurative context in which a practical company has less meaning.
  • I’m or have to be too busy to miss someone. I don’t want to allow myself to muck around with missing someone.
  • I’m afraid of a fact of mentally leaning on someone who could make me miss them. Those reliance could be a sign of mental deterioration, and I don’t want to let them go. I’m so weak that I must be very cautious not to give any chances to what can possibly impair the mental stability.
Each of these can’t be an independent factor; it’s a mixture of these, or maybe they are really same being described in different ways. All of them are based on my weakness because it’s possible to say that I escaped from a difficulty of this real world into a metaphorical world. Anyway, as Eric Clapton says,
I must be strong and carry on
'Cos I know I don't belong here in heaven

Nov 17, 2010

How I Should Behave toward Irrationality

What should I think and do when I face up to irrational people who I have to get along with for a while? It must not necessarily be a good idea to challenge or try to convince them logically since logic might irritate them more. On the other hand, there can be some cases I should point out and put things right if situations need productivity or efficiency, e.g. in work or study. This sounds reasonable, doesn’t it? However, once I feel offended or find me being able to tolerate or even love them, this can become more difficult for me.

Let’s begin with the case I feel offended. I may want to protect myself with logic, but I may also doubt I can really protect myself with refuting them because they may have merely wanted to say something and maybe I shouldn’t have taken things personally. In this case, there’s nothing I can protect myself from. It could end up barking up the wrong tree and making me pathetic. This is absolutely the last thing I want to be.

When it comes to tolerance or love, I will be happy to do that if I can since I have always sought chances to develop my such ability. Nevertheless, am I responsible? If I can do more which may be giving them my two cents gently rather than just accepting, should I do this? It could still make them feel challenged.

Nov 9, 2010

How Come We Become so Wistful

Even without any sorrowful events nor any reminders of bitterest blow, we come across the moments sinking into a wistful feeling once in a while. Why do we have to become so wistful, as if we ourselves breathed out loneliness to fill the planet... maybe due to Don McLean.

Nov 5, 2010

Optimist Has Expectations?

I have wanted to be an optimist, and also tried to expect something constantly despite inevitable disappointments. Are there any connection between two? I hope some because it's a little easier to understand these two ideas if so. I looked up the words.

Optimistic
hopeful and confident about the future
Expectation
a strong belief that something will happen or be the case in thefuture 
(New Oxford American Dictionary)

Hmm, it sounds like they have some connections, but I can't explain it well yet. So, I asked my English teacher. She said, "Not necessarily." In her opinion, to be an optimist, it's not necessary to have ambitions or expectations.

Okay, I'll take her words so far.

Nov 4, 2010

I Don't Know That

I just realized there seem to be far more things I don't understand well than I thought. Nevertheless, it's also true that I often get a feeling "this is what I have thought about before..." whenever I encounter these problems. Therefore, it might be a good idea to jot them down since life is too short to keep thinking same things for such a long time. On top of that, it must be a good habit for my English writing too.

Basically, I'm going to write about what I don't know, what I thought about them so far as connecting to my daily events.

I hope this could become not merely a notebook for myself, but also things worth reading for a few people.

Feb 6, 2010

Gratitude

おかん、おやじ、千佳子、こなつ、めぐ、美子さん、ともくん、ひろこさん、谷口さん、さっちゃん、まさのぶさん、ひさちゃん、おっさん、上月、赤穂くん、小野くん、なお、いずみ、のりちゃん、せどくん、ななこ、よしん、平野さん、よっち、ゆうすけ、こいちゃん、あきひで、よしたか、どしださん、社長、のりこさん、よしさん、しんやさん、金ちゃん、田中さん、紀田さん、秋田さん、原田さん、かよ、Jim、あぐり、けいこ、Chi、そして、Marc、
みんなありがと!うっかり名前を挙げ忘れちゃった君にだって同じくらいありがと!僕が今こうして生きているのは、間違いなくみんなのおかげです。

せっかく生きているので、僕は僕の責任を果たすべくちょっくら頑張ってきます。

本当に本当にありがと!

2010年2月7日
西海 裕治